This weekend we took our kitten to my mother-in-law's in the Ozarks to live. We couldn't keep her due to land lord saying no and, well, we live in a super small house and already have a 52 pound dog.
This cat was a life saver for me. When I rescued her from the middle of the highway, life was pretty challenging. I was trying desparately hard to let go of the anxiety and grief I was feeling over not being able to be pregnant yet. There are so many obstacles in my way that I wonder if it will ever happen.
And enters a little kitten less than 3 pounds heavy, all injured and needy, purring love all over my bleeding heart. For the past 6 weeks, she has provided a major distraction and focus for my care and love. Life somehow is easier when there's a little kitten to love, isn't it?
She's almost twice the weight and much larger than she was when I found her. Her wounds of the body and heart are healed. She jumps and plays and gets into trouble so much that I wonder if she thinks her name actually means NO.
The day we left her at the house on the farm, I disappeared from the farm chores and played cuddled with her for a long time. She was so sweet and concerned about my tears and found blowing my nose to be absolutely fascinating.
I hadn't cried about not being able to be pregnant since I found her. What a blessing. Of course, I haven't had any doctor appointments to fret over this last month either.
I'm so grateful for the respite from my grief. It was still there, in the background. I still got sad and frustrated. But I had a kitten to purr on my chest at night while I read and a kitten chasing her tail in my kitchen and a kitten demanding attention by walking on the keyboard. It was nice.
I have all kinds of amazing support in my life from friends and family to my husband and dog. But for a while I could give and receive just a smattering of the mother-child love with my kitty. And, I get to see her in 2 weeks! What a blessing.
I'm not sure what the next months bring and what the next hurtles will be, but I'm just not going to think about it for a while.
